damn... just got back... unwrapped my bandage to find like this long bruising on my leg... must be from the sprain.

geez... what the hell is wrong with shanny yeah... she's like PMS-ing or something... always ignoring me when i'm asking her questions or constantly complaining abt stuff... crazy woman. she's like with her usual streak of "i don't know"s and other rubbish... it's really beginning to bug me abit now i must say.

but it might also be me yeah... i'm feeling kinda left of centre lately... constantly having my random bouts of depression again... i think i'm like imploding from within... need to haf a form of cathartic release to kind of lighten the load. if it's really with me i'll take everything back just mentioned.

oh yeah... went to city hall with lixin, rebecca, charlene, carol, benji and danielle after sch. totally hilarious yeah... we were at marche enjoying all this good food onli to turn out that i had $12 in my wallet? (i lent $20 to someone... and forgot abt it... my bad). haha.... that wasn't the dumbest thing yeah... bimbo carol was talking to her odac seniors (presumably bimbos/himbos) on the way back to city hall MRT who were like asking "WHERE IS THE POLICE ACADEMY?" and carol had to ask me the stupidest question "are there alot of police officers there?" and in my moment of frustration i said "nono... alot of police dogs" and that bimbo reiterated whatever i said to her senior... i was like saying "HELL NO" and everyone else around me burst out laughing like mad... and she kept slapping me like mad and called me a 'loser' (kinda ironic eh haha)... just goes to show that odac is all abt mental endurance... not mental processing hurhur.

and after the rugby match at the police academy (where i wasted like 40 minutes talking to melvin, hong yew and coffee without paying attention to the match), i went out with rebecca (again), charlene (again), eddie, xin he, casandra, adeline, hong yew and some other A32 ppl to orchard to like rot at long john's. we were like trying to spike hong yew's hair but it was a futile attempt yeah... it's like way too long to be spiked anyway... so like we're asking him to cut it haha. then after that most of them left... leaving rebecca, charlene, hong yew and i. in our sheer boredom we walked from FAR EAST allllll the way to the ESPLANADE (with a short visit to CHIMES... a first for hong yew) to stone around... then we walked on to clifford pier (my fave walking spot) to lau pa sat's bus stop before charlene couldn't take it and wanted to go home... then rebecca and i accompanied her back yeah... bet we're all shagged from this long march. yeah... that's all for my day hurhur.

yo. not exactly a smooth day i guess.. sprained my ankle today when looking for dan ho to tell him my class was ready for PE (how ironic)... not bad eh... at least he showed some concern abt my condition of a swollen ankle (one twice the size of the other)... haha... guess it's kinda retribution for calling grace names and stuff lol. shanny was complaining that i was walking horribly slow to the bus stop (bimbotic as usual =P). at least charlene bothered to like follow me back on 61 (which i thought had seats but guess i was wrong yeah)... had to stand THE WHOLE TIME. damn. behaved like a damn humji when i came home too... my mum was like threatening to bring me to a sinseh to get my ankle whipped sideways haha and i was like clinging on to my chair shouting no haha... my dad was prob. laughing his ass off in the room haha. and i still like don't quite dare to put an ankle guard cuz it hurts like donkey nuts. anyways, i still cannot believe i lost to our dear house captain in econs haha... this time must study very hard and hope to beat him once and for all LOL.

PS: alvyn... u look like a fag with them mat glasses. LOLLERSKATE. or something.

wooo yeah... i got 9/20 for my econs test... shocker man... was expecting to get like 6 or something haha... well guess i'll have to work harder to pass... stupid careless mistakes (how the hell did i get 20 million for an XED coefficient? haha). yeah guess the rest of my day was spent like just breezing thru it... was a surprisingly pleasant day... didn't get into a lot of trouble i guess but i know i'm kinda behind time when it comes to study and stuff cuz like mrs helen tan was talking about how the "quite hardworking" student puts in like 7 hours a day studying while i put in zilch baby. ZILCH. hurhur. then like after that i got back my GP essay, another shocker, 21/40, maybe i'm not used to the JC standard of compre yet yeah... normally i would expect 30 if i was in secondary school still haha... must work very hard for GP... want to secure that distinction along with that for every other subjects (what an ambitious man)

so like after school i went to town with carol and shanny to like stone around hurhur... had dinner at mos burger to like come home to find out that my mum cooked vermicilli (read: mee sua)... liew... wasted LOL. that's like my fave food yeah. grrr. what the hell... i'm sounding like a damn fag. hurhur... better start acting like a man... else i'll be guniang baby. that would be a bummer...

yo. haha... was playing with new toy (a palm!) yesterday night and found out that i have so much crap in store for me next week hurhur
1. GP quiz
2. Econs essay test
totally broke yeah... spent every single last cent... just to find out that i have to buy a memory stick to use the mp3 player in my palm (!!!!!!). anger. frustration. haha. at least i got free ice cream for buying the palm... good marketing strategy yeah. haha. will talk about it tomorrow...


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friday friday... it's friday again... haha. brought my digi cam to sch for fun today... was like flashing it arnd taking random pictures and videos with the A32 ppl at the balcony (got some funny pictures of shanny and hong yew doing stupid stuff separately)...
oh yeah... my form tutor was damn pissed today (don't blame him for being so). my class is supposedly one of the better classes (academically) but we're like the shittiest bunch in terms of attitude and attendance. 6 absentees yesterday and they could only manage to contact 2. plus he was absent so ANOTHER teacher had to do the marking of attendance and the hunting down of students. not surprisingly he was informed and perturbed by such behaviour. there's a limit to everyone yeah.... and my teacher is a very tolerant man, so when he loses his temper i guess he really has a reason to. i kinda pity him that he has to get a class like mine (WITH ME HURHUR) cuz it really shortens his life expectancy (geography. hur) and affects his physical/emotional well-being. and it kinda sucks when u haf to see a person reprimand the whole class by shouting at them when he's still ill and had to literally drag his own ass to school. on a lighter note though john smith was in his dramatic sarca mood today... veri funny in his movements haha (as usual) and after his lesson i went to town with adrean, charlene, lixin, shanny and si ting to long john's. shanny said she had to go home and couldn't go to lixin's church cuz her mum imposed a curfew which like stated she had to be home by 8 (read: HA HA) but she had her clique come down at 6 plus to walk around with her for an hour before going home (weird yeah haha) and adrean was too much of a good boy to go with us (hurhur... good boy). oh yeah... damn lixin's church is like... sooooooooooooooo cool yeah... and i thought SJI's performing arts centre is cool... the church totally owns it. the pastor there (jeremy) is also a witty and charismatic guy... the whole experience was like... enriching... and it kinda makes me wanna go for a 2nd time hahah. yeah... so like i reached home at 10:30... dead tired. gonna go sleep soon.

got past another boring day. had to drag my arse to sch to find out my CT was absent (can't snag a green slip anywhere) as well as the usual lively bunch (pontang-ing slackers)... so i was like moody the whole day picking on ppl and pissing them off... i was like... trying to stand infront of a firing squad of sorts i guess.

yes yes... i'm beginning to enjoy geography... don't ask why... it's beginning to be less of a chore now even though i had 4 periods of it today... and i have every intention to keep all my 4 subs at the end of this year... lit (read: john smith) is becoming abit draggy... but i guess my interest will help pull me thru. maths is another struggle like geog but i don't mind working for it. econs is fun... but not as fun as it used to be with mrs helen tan. great teacher. totally miss her teaching style... but i'll haf to make do with mr lee.

maths test was like a disaster of massive proportions haha. i totally bonked out at the last part of the paper (worth 9 marks) for binomial... was like stoning there while everyone was trying to solve/copy/look around. at least i know i got 3 marks secured (out of 20... mua hahahaha). i'm sure hong yew secured those 3 too lol. oh well... guess i'll haf to do lots of study for maths over the weekend.
one more thing: my GP tutor is nuts... she took off 4 marks from my GP essay for handing it in late (haha... charlene got 8 off LOL), giving me a 25/50 for an essay i did last minute... haha. (damn must work for my A1). she's also giving us a quiz from stuff in the handouts... i'm telling u this woman is nuts... she claims to be able to annotate stuff in like... 2 minutes when i can fucking stare at the stupid handout for 5 without knowing what to do. (where she come from... MIANUS*?)

*Mianus (pronounced my-anus): please watch Jackass (season 1, episode 5) for more info.

hahah just wanted to say DAMN. forgot to bring my PE shorts today to school for PE lesson and my PE teacher mr ong didn't let me take part in floorball (damn). but on the whole it was just another boring day even though it's short wednesday and i like wednesdays more than the other days. dragged my friend to NJ to watch the SA vs. NJ soccer match yeah, but we ended up playing basketball then leaving onli 10 minutes after the match started (!?) hahah... to add... i can't play basketball for nuts yeah... totally screwed up all my shots (all over the place but the hoop hahah). yeah yeah... was like replaying this song over and over on my way back from NJ... and still trying to study for my maths test which is TOMORROW and i like have totally no idea what was taught for the topics 'cuz i didn't take maths in my first 3 months (SA REFUSED to let me take maths earlier on) yeah yeah... i can smell an F.... i can just smell it hurhur

Matchbox Twenty - Unwell

All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something

Hold on
Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me

I'm talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow I've lost my mind

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

I've been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Yeah, how I used to be
How I used to be
Well, I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
I'm just a little unwell


haha.... what a wonderful day. my GP teacher, ms ang, was on MC, so like 3 periods of GP ended up with 2 of them being replaced by econs (pushed up) and 1 being cancelled... so i effectively ended at 2:50. then after that i went with charlene and si ting to buy my new bag haha. then i dragged all their carcasses to queensway to like buy 3 packs of fries and a chicken mccrispy to bring back to school because si ting wanted to watch shanny play in her tennis match against NJ.

must say NJ is good.... and shanny behaved like a bimbo hahaa. everytime she hit the ball out she'll start swinging her racquet around like some 3 yr old who hadn't come into contact with a racquet before yeah. too bad they lost yeah (good luck next time.) then i went home with charlene at 6. then i met mrs helen tan, my 1st 3 months econs teacher. a very very nice person... she waved 'hi' to me when i didn't notice her. there are times when i feel that teachers in school don't care about their students until i see her yeah, it's like she's an intrinisically good teacher who really cares about the welfare of her current and ex-students. anway, carried 2 sch bags onto the bus... looked like some stupid fool with charlene on 963... 2 people with 3 bags (wonder how that came about LOL)

Should I Stay

Had a drive
Driven by your love
But when you messed around
I lost the drive I found
Thought you needed
needed someone true
But you changed your mind
or had I failed you?
Wished you've been careful with my heart
But you tore it apart
and broke an angel's heart
I guess what's true has an end somewhow
But I am living proof of what love is about

It's hard holding you, loving you, losing you
It's sad to be true and be fooled by you
I don't know I wanna know
Should I stay or should I go

You played me on, played me like a clown
But I feel for you, even though I'm down
My heart is heavy, heavy like a rock
But I am so amused you're still in my thoughts

It's hard holding you, loving you, losing you
It's sad to be true and be fooled by you
I don't know, I wanna know
Should I stay or should I go
Should I stay or should I go

It's hard holding you, loving you, losing you
It's sad to be true and be fooled by you
I don't know, I wanna know
Should I stay or should I...

What's done and I'll never feel the same
But we had some good times, guess it's sad just the same
I guess the truth doesn't matter somehow
But you were living proof, of what love is about


i like the way i'm being tortured with 4 breaks on fridays and end with a double period of lit. my god is john smith boring... but his chest hair seems to fascinate people yeah.

heh... went to queensway yesterday with shanny, adrean, si ting and charlene. we were like going to go walk around queensway and bum around after a meal at mcdonalds when shanny decided to go home and watch her cooky anime as usual... haha tried to bribe her to stay with an apple pie but she took it and went home. (?) so like we ended up walking around till abt 6:30 when we were so sian we could like die (circled the 2nd floor for like 4 times? haha). i was begging all of them to go town and stone with me but ended up catching 61 to go home.

final random thought: is lionel yeo supposed to be yandao? cuz like alot of girls seem to give me feedback that he's such a charming and handsome guy yeah but i find him a big bucket of moose piss. sorry. my 2 cents. allan's a way better person than him.





st joseph's institution

the blood runs deep in me haha













evanescence - imaginary

i linger in the doorway
of alarm clock screaming monsters calling my name
let me stay
where the wind will whisper to me
where the raindrops as they're falling tell a story

in my field of paper flowers
and candy clouds of lullaby
i lie inside myself for hours
and watch my purple sky fly over me

don't say i'm out of touch
with this rampant chaos - your reality
i know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge
the nightmare i built my own world to escape

in my field of paper flowers
and candy clouds of lullaby
i lie inside myself for hours
and watch my purple sky fly over me

swallowed up in the sound of my screaming
cannot cease for the fear of silent nights
oh how i long for the deep sleep dreaming
the goddess of imaginary light