block test was nothing short of a disaster. fucking hell. i realli wished i studied more for it. my parents are pointing it out that hockey is taking up too much time and tt it's hurting my studies. i won't deny it. but it's something i'll have to learn to deal with, at least till season is over in may.

training today was tough. and it's just a hint of what's to come. had 7x 400m. having not ran for like the whole week during the block test period, it realli shows how weak i am compared to the rest, trailing behind alot of them for most of the sets. and i had to be a wussy by resting longer than the rest just cuz i had a lousy headache, along with the sloppy play for the rest of the day. pathetic on my part, just PATHETIC. should have known better. it's bad enough that i can't study. neither can i play hockey. or run. WEAK.

reading zihan's blog just makes it worse. he seems a better player than me. with a better attitude. and way fitter. so how the hell did i make it into the 20, depriving him and alan of a place in the team. even danker said it himself. the team can onli be as strong as its weakest link. and i'm already behaving like excess baggage. being that lousy CONSCIOUSLY, and still being able to find time to EAT, PLAY POOL, GO OUT. better wake up, for my own sake, as well as the team's sake.

The Slow Dancer
Deliberate Gentle Love Dreamer (DGLDm)


Steady, reliable, and cradling her tenderly. Take a deep breath, and let it out real easy...you are The Slow Dancer.

Your focus is love, not sex, and for your age, you have average experience. But you're a great, thoughtful guy, and your love life improves every year. There's also a powerful elimination process working in your favor: most Playboy types get stuck raising unwanted kids before you even begin settling down. The women left over will be hot and yours. Your ideal woman is someone intimate, intelligent, and very supportive.

While you're not exactly the life of the party, you do thrive in small groups of smart people. Your circle of friends is extra tight and it's HIGHLY likely they're just like you. You appreciate symmetry in relationships.


Your exact opposite:
The Hornivore (Random Brutal Sex Master)

ALWAYS AVOID: The Battleaxe

CONSIDER: The Maid of Honor or The Sonnet

(http://www.okcupid.com/oktest)

erkay.

The Current Me

YOUR

Current Clothes: SJI PE attire (shirt & shorts)
Current Taste: i taste salty.
Current Hair: black
Current thing I ought to be doing: studying.
Current Desktop Picture: default pic
Current Book: long day's journey into night (great book)
Current MP3 listening: five for fighting - something about you
Current disc in VCD/DVD: don't own a player

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LAST PERSON

You Talked to Online: melvin
You Touched: hmmm. :)))))
You Hugged: i don't hug ppl
You Kissed: neither do i do this
You instant messaged: melvin
You Yelled At: too many ppl

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ARE YOU

Understanding: no
Open-minded: depends
Insecure: quite
Interesting: not veri
Random: quite
Hungry: yes
Friendly: it's veri relative
Smart: not veri smart la
Moody: can get quite moody
Independent: not very
Hard working: used to be
Organized: mood dependent
Short-tempered: very

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HAVE YOU EVER

Eaten an entire box of Oreos?: no
Been on stage: yes
Dumped Someone: no
Been in a car accident: no
Been Cheated on: no

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EITHER/OR

Coffee or hot chocolate: hot chocolate
Xbox or Playstation: playstation
Sony or panasonic : sony
Mexx or Banana republic : banana republic
Guess or Gap : guess
Jeans or cords: jeans
Sweater or hoodie: sweater
T-shirt or long sleeve: t shirt
Wool or cotton: cotton
Rose or Lily: rose
Rock or Pop: rock
Everybodys love Raymond or That 70's show: That 70's show
Do you have a boy bestfriend : not anymore
Do you have a girl bestfriend: few
Do you have a bestfriend: not anymore. lost one. been haunted ever since

got my jersey on tuesday. wore it then. washed it. dried it.

within 2 days, i've grown to love my jersey. so much so that when thinesh asked me to lend it to johann and santosh for the UWC competition, i just refused. i think i'm being a selfish bastard, but i'm realli sorry. i noe it's for the team... but this no. 14 jersey will probably be the only thing i can realli be proud of when i wear it, and i don't think ppl will feel the same when they don the same no. 14 jersey for the SA Hockey team. i noe i'm being a fucker by not giving it up and possibly coming across as a selfish motherfucker, but yeah. sorry. can't do it.

from vic's blog. at least something that's not so haolian. i hope.

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
1. failure
2. rejection
3. insects

THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH:
1. paul/weijian
2. rachel/jo
3. ann

THREE PEOPLE I LOVE:
1. dad
2. grandma
3. grandpa

THREE THINGS I LOVE:
1. listening to music
2. slacking with my hockey guys
3. lying on my bed

THREE THINGS I HATE:
1. liars
2. sore losers like me
3. whiny ppl like me

THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND:
1. why can't i see my own shortcomings?
2. why i can't seem to communicate with ppl
3. how can i be so blind?

THREE THINGS ON MY DESK:
1. watch
2. handphone
3. pencil case

THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW:
1. listening to mp3
2. msging on msn
3. blogging

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
1. make my grandparents and parents proud of me
2. be nicer to my brother
3. catch a nice sunset and sunrise at the bridge

THREE COLORS I LIKE:
1. white
2. black
3. red

THREE THINGS I CAN DO:
1. cook
2. talk cock
3. irritate ppl

THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:
1. slack
2. lazy
3. apathetic

THREE THINGS I CAN'T DO:
1. take initiative in making frens
2. speaking fluent chinese
3. singing

THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO:
1. music
2. my crap
3. ur parents

THREE THINGS I DON'T THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO EVER:
1. my crap
2. some of ur peers
3. ur principal

THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
1. i'm bored
2. i'm tired
3. i'm too lazy

THREE OF YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS:
1. stingray
2. lasagne
3. chicken rice

THREE THINGS YOU'D LIKE TO LEARN:
1. squash
2. hainanese
3. chinese calligraphy

THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY:
1. water
2. sprite
3. milo

holy majoly. got one of the most pleasant surprises of my god damn life.
I GOT AN A1 FOR MY CHINESE. FINALLY! after like 5 years since i last smelt the A1 air for chinese.

i didn't even get an A1 for my Os chinese la (i got an A2 btw), which was like ok with me but didn't quite go very well with my chinese teacher Mrs Hsu then in SJI. (she was like expecting an A1 from a slacker like me. but i was hoping for the A1 myself though... after all. we did haf like 40+% distinctions or something, which was fantastic for a class at the bottom)

distinctions have been eluding me for years la, esp in sec 3 and 4 where i always got C5-B3, with the best being a A2 in sec 4 when i actually bothered to study for my bi-weekly chinese tests in sch and do my assignments. still remember when Mr Lee (my sec 1/2 chinese teacher and form tutor) telling my parents and i that i had potential to do well in chinese, which realli ended up making me getting realli complacent when it came to chinese la, which totally killed my interest in chinese. (hey. having an interest in the language and being a chink are TWO DIFFERENT THINGS)

haha. then came JC chinese. like wow la. first time i get such nice and slack teachers (a real change from SJI when my chinese teachers were nice, but horribly strict). so yeah... haha was given alot of breathing space (Ms Ho lets us listen to music in class during her lessons when we're doing work), which i realli made use of to slack around, so i was expecting onli a B3/B4 at best when my CT was handing out the results (didn't study for the paper. Ms Ho said that we can't realli study for chinese anyway). haha.

like wow. seriously a pleasant surprise, and it's nice to at least have something like this to brighten a day filled with tests (lit test, maths test and one freaking GP essay. one after another)


Heart of Crystal


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we saw neil spencer at starbucks today (that fool can't recognise anyone now. not in the state that he's in at least). thx ah. he's changed. smoking like a god damn chimney and swearing incessantly. changed. saddening seeing him in this state. oh well... maybe he's happier now yeah. so much for being my first best friend yeah. it's amazing how in the span of 4 years someone can change SO MUCH.

bah fuck it. it ain't my fault he became like this. as if i would have been able to prevent him from becoming what he is today.

from vic's blog

~FIRST~
*First pet : a chick
*First piercing/tattoo: none
*First best friend: neil spencer, hpps
*First enemy: forgot already. they don't last
*First trip: JB
*First party: my own b'day la
*First play/musical/performance: some emil chow concert
*First musician you remember hearing in your house: phil colins

~LASTS~
*Last big car ride: sunday afternoon
*Last good cry: good cry? never had tears of joy before
*Last library book: john sloman's econs book
*Last movie seen: cold mountain
*Last beverage drank: ice blended mocha
*Last food consumed: fish!
*Last crush: not saying
*Last phone call: guoyi.
*Last tv show watched: ESPN
*Last club/show attend: don't know
*Last time showered: an hour ago
*Last shoes worn: adidas climacool generation 1
*Last song played: steadman - carried
*Last item bought: ice blended mocha.
*Last annoyance: friday night. some retarded person pissed me off on MSN
*Last disappointment: ho ho. today. on the bus.
*Last soda drank: saturday.
*Last ice cream eaten: on my birthday
*Last time wanting to die: just now
*Last time scolded: hmm. during econs tutorial
*Last shirt worn: black ripcurl shirt
*Last hair do: my usual messy shit
*Last website visited: kev.side-project.net
*Last Good fun: ages ago
*Last book u've read: long day's journey into night
*Last person ur thinking of: not saying