Finger Eleven - One Thing

Restless tonight
Cause I wasted the light
Between both these times
I drew a really thin line
It’s nothing I planned
And not that I can
But you should be mine
Across that line

If I traded it all
If I gave it all away for one thing
Just for one thing
If I sorted it out
If I knew all about this one thing
Wouldn’t that be something

I promise I might
Not walk on by
Maybe next time
But not this time

Even though I know
I don’t want to know
Yeah I guess I know
I just hate how it sounds


must let off some steam.

got onto a relatively packed bus. as usual. and some motherfucker who wanted to get off [2 stops after i got on and was jammed at the front] thru the front door had to FUCKING RUB MY ELBOWS TO SIGNAL FOR ME TO MOVE. I MEAN LIKE OI, WAKE UP UR BLOODY IDEA LAH. I'M A GUY. U'RE A GUY. U CAN TAP MY SHOULDER AND ASK ME TO MOVE RIGHT. WHY THE FUCK DO U HAVE TO RUB MY ELBOW TWICE. U GOT A VOICE TOO U KNOW. CHEEBYE. (yes, if u didn't get that. i got/felt violated.) give me 2 weeks to get over the trauma of it all. but hey hey, today got the cute girl again on the bus, maybe that kinda made it all go away. hehe.

BUT that doesn't change my opinion on the fucked up bus service listed below:

963 bus schedule from my place to SAJC (woodlands - harbourfront)
[bus arrival times are WHEN THEY arrive at my place)

- 6:20am - safe. not very packed.
(arrives at 6:50-6:55am)
- 6:28am - relatively dangerous. might be packed to the door.
(arrives at 6:55-7:05am)
- 6:40am - don't need to look. packed.
(arrives at 7:10-7:15am)
- 6:50am - might be packed. unless a miracle happens, u're late.
(arrives at 7:28am onwards)
- anything later = LATE

(if u don't understand that. U'RE EITHER LATE OR DAMN EARLY FOR SCH)

 
lots of shit happen la. i'll always end up getting on the bus where there's this fucked up woman who gets up on the Yusof Ishak Sec Sch stop and bang on the windows asking ppl to go in (when the bus is already full), and scream in chinese to ask ppl to move in. big fuck lah. always knock on the windows like some loan shark, then get on the bus and dun move in. fat ball with a voice.
(i'm actually glad when the bus just goes past that stop without even slowing down. and YES. i actually hope tt the stop is empty)

and yes. tomorrow i don't have to go to sch. got Hendon Camp checkup. and thursday's service learning. 2 days without taking that smelly bus. yes. YAY.


enjoy the games as a team.
win as a team.
lose as a team.
 
it's a team sport. like how praba and ben put it best, enjoy the game and pls don't snipe each other. mistakes happen, we learn to take it in our stride. just don't go flapping ur gums when everyone has tried and u haven't. it reflects FUCKING badly on yourself, fuckface.
 
ppl gave a chance to play. don't go around running your mouth on how other ppl are not good enough to play for the team. (i'm sure everyone who is officially on the name list is qualified. and i don't recall seeing urs ANYWHERE. heck, ur name was not even inked in any single way on the piece of paper.) so why the fuck are u biting the hand that feeds you? i don't know what ur secondary sch has taught u, but the least u can say is a THANK YOU. now i noe why ppl hate u so much.
 
moving on, i would like to say that while a thousand apologies would not suffice. but i would still say sorry and thank you to the romanis 2 soccer guys. it's realli been wonderful playing with u guys. i haven't enjoyed the game like i have in a long time.  

thank you romanis 2. i really enjoyed the soccer:
 
- ben
- jeffrey
- guan da
- kenneth
- kian chong
- malcolm
- peter
- perry
- praba
- sidney
- thinesh
- wei jie
- whye kiat
 
maybe we can play together as a team again soon ya?



You are hereby required under Section 9 of the Enlistment Act, (Cap 93) to report for VOCATIONAL ASSIGNMENT on 28/07/2004 at 1:30pm to Hendon Camp.
 
 
wtf man. make me go all the bloody way to Loyang to report for some donkey shit. oh well. at least i can skip sch. woohoo!


'Tis a lesson you should heed,
Try, try, try again.
If at first you don't succeed,
Try, try, try again.

- William Edward Hickson

heh. heard carol repeating this first thing in the morning. so i kinda looked around for it. and who says i dont ponder upon the simplest of stuff :)




Block Test 2 Review (Done in a Helen Tan autopsy style)

Literature (57.3333333333333333333333333333333333333333%)
- Paper 1: 13/25
- Paper 5: 15/25
- Paper 8: 15/25

yay! i finally got a D! (though i kinda hoped for a C). mr smith kinda said something about Ds not being enough and we should be hovering in the C grade bracket by now. wish i could say tt for myself, but i guess i'm beginning to make lots of progress for lit (finally). it's been a long slump for me. i'm glad i'm beginning to get out of the ditch. must kinda thank smithy though, it was his excellent analysis of "the jilted darling" james tyrone jr tt kinda got me interested in my once-favourite subject again. thanks smithy, love u lots (ok tt sounded damn wrong)

Economics (32.something%)
- Essay 1: 6/25
- Essay 2: 7/12
- Case Study: 9/30

hahaha. my god. like wad da fark?! hurhur. this is like funny in a twisted way. i spent the most time on economics when studying for econs. (which is like damn paiseh to even post it here lah. haha.) wah study my theory of income distribution until "cows come home" then whack the question, i got a grade that would make mr lee's cows jump over the muthafugging moon. hurhur. i wrote a similar essay to him last time round and got like 14/25 for it, now i get 1/10 for the fucking part (a). hehe. just simply cuz i labelled "yf" as "ye" for my diagram, which effectively blew it. amazingly i passed int'l trade which i didn't study la. song. =P case study has never been my forte to begin with, so i didn't expected a pass. neither did i expect a 9 lah. it's sadly funny. wow, i used an oxymoron sial.

Maths (35%)

errr. didn't study. hahah. tried like sitting down at the library to do maths for like, a week and a half trying to get some concepts in? but like hardly got stuff in lah. no wonder ms kwan wrote "you should know the real reason for your poor performance". i'm really sorry that i've been disappointing her because this woman has always told me tt i am "seriously capable of a B minimum if i tried", so like ya. guess it's time i start picking up the shards and piece my puzzle together.

General Paper

WOW. i passed GP! hurhur. am i amazing or what. i thought i wrote out of point for my essay, with useless references to Aldous Huxley's Brave New World regarding the possibility of eugenics for an essay about how modern science has changed what it means to be human. whahaha. long live the "point counterpoint" man lah. attempted the "AQ first" method, but kinda did summary as my last part cuz i always take a while to let all my info sink into my head. so ya. managed to scrap away with not-so-fantastic grades, but i'm still happy lah. too bad my CA marks are so gonna pull down my overall grade by the truckloads. hehe

Maroon 5
She Will Be Loved


Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

"My life is not an apology, but a life. It is for itself and not for a spectacle. I much prefer that it should be of a lower strain, so it be genuine and equal, than that it should be glittering and unsteady."
-Ralph Waldo Emerson (1803 - 1882)

thoughts.

today's friendly against Venn 2 (they had key player/s missing) was not bad. we won. the first goal scored by them was a result of my mistake. i didn't mark the player. but then again, i haven't really played as a defender before. i'm not a man at the back, i tend to collapse under pressure. good game nonetheless. no thanks to me of course. used to playing upfield, in the attacking portion of the game, so i hope to do so this year. i don't mind doing it as a substitute (just like hockey).

spoke to my mum about tuition later a day (consider it a miracle that i'm speaking to my mum abt serious matters in a diplomatic manner). guess i'll be getting 2 tutors. for the final stretch. hopefully i'll be able to make it. i don't want to relive the horror of my sec 2 days. i fear those days.


confessions.

-i feel glad, that i've passed paper 8.
-i feel sad that i didn't do too well for it.
-i feel that it might be too late now but i hope it isn't too late
-i really don't know how to feel right now beyond that.

-i feel guilty for not studying for maths, subsequently flunking it.
-i feel pissed for being insulted by a some fucking bitch about it. (P.S: i'm a vindictive bastard. so watch out)

10 Years Ago (P2), I...
1. lived with my grandparents
2. wore brown shorts and beige (HPPS)
3. was appointed student leader by my form tutor
4. borrowed money for the first time (20 cents)
5. never knew the true value of $20

5 Years Ago (Sec 1), I...
1. lived with my parents in Pine Grove
2. wore all white for a sch uni (SJI)
3. won third for inter-class handball
4. got lowest in the whole level for maths in mid yr then bounced back with an A1
5. failed in my studies

3 Years Ago (Sec 3), I...
1. wore long pants for the first time for sch
2. was forced into a combination i didn't want
3. actually did well in science and enjoyed literature
4. grew fat
5. hated SJI's system

2 Years Ago (Sec 4), I...
1. became obese
2. pissed off my class (hurhur. the horror of it all)
3. wanted to go NJC
4. hated myself
5. got 12 points for prelims

1 Year Ago (JC 1), I...
1. ended up in SAJC for 1st 3 months (loved it)
2. lost 25kg in 3-4 months
3. hated myself less
4. stayed in SAJC after that (didn't realli love it)
5. joined hockey (loved it)

So Far This Year, I...
1. maintained my weight
2. passed my NAPFA
3. scored a goal for the team during the A divs (a good way to remember the wonderful memories i guess)
4. buried the hatchet with many ppl
5. messed up my studies quite abit

Yesterday, I....
1. went out with the 411 guys
2. ate at pizza hut
3. played pool for the first time in ages
4. sat on 190 for the first time in a long time to orchard, passing by SJI
5. felt hollow

Today, I ....
1. woke up late
2. cut my hair
3. realised that my ankle isn't gonna heal anytime soon, even though it's been 2 months
4. saw michael schumacher win the fucking formula 1 again
5. await the euro 2004 finals to see greece upset portugal

Tomorrow I will...
1. try to wake up in time
2. try to study
3. eat
4. ponder abt what's next
5. come to terms with reality tt sch starts on tuesday

heh. had a mixed day today. woke up late for the soccer game with the SA guys in sch (supposed to be there at 11. woke up at 12? paiseh) hurhur. so i kinda lazed around at home then went down to CCAB at 3 to play some soccer with the SJI guys instead.
clarence
esmond
tow han
victor
robin
reuben
mark
weiliang
norman

hurhur all turned up to play with robin before he goes back to indonesia. had a wonderful time. haven't had fun with them in some time. totally enjoyed myself there with the group. hurhur. the guys spent alot of time jacking the exo-lookalike for his chubby frame. which was hilarious la. but i cannot be mean. cuz i was like that in the past. hurhur.

then we stopped playing at about 6 plus to makan at bukit timah. hurhur. downed the following:
0.5x mee goreng
1x cheese mushroom prata
1x egg prata

knn. feel damn bloated now. guess i'll have to burn all this when sch reopens ya.
in the meantime, still looking for a tuition teacher for maths and econs. i know this is kinda late. but hey, better late than never right? :D

i wanna upgrade my PC:

• Dual 2.5GHz PowerPC G5
• 8GB DDR400 SDRAM (PC3200) - 8x1GB
• 2x250GB Serial ATA - 7200rpm
• 8x SuperDrive (DVD-R/CD-RW)
• NVIDIA GeForce 6800 Ultra DDL
• PCI-X Gigabit Ethernet Card
• Fibre Channel PCI Card (w/ SFP-SFP cable)
• 56K V.92 Modem
• Bluetooth Module
• AirPort Extreme Card
• Bluetooth Module + Apple Wireless Keyboard + Mouse
• Mac OS X - International English
• Creative Inspire 5700 Speaker w/ cable
• Apple Cinema HD Display (30" flat panel) - FE
• Apple Cinema HD Display (30" flat panel) - FE
• .Mac Promo Bundle
• iSight (AP)
• iPod 40GB (FE)

Price: S$30,708.21
GST: S$1,535.41
Subtotal: S$32,243.62