Boy Friend
Between Those Two Words, a Guy Can Get Crushed

The worst kind of temptation, as Tantalus found out, is the sort that's closest, the fruit that's barely out of reach. This holds true for infatuation, which is why the cruelest crush is one between friends.

We call this the friend-crush, and it happens when one member of a platonic relationship secretly harbors a desire for something more. The friend-crush survives through crying jags and significant others and drunken walks home. And when it ends, it often goes out with a humiliating fizzle, accompanied by something like, "I can't date you, Jason/Bobby/Steven/Mike. I value our friendship too much."



I WANT YOU STRICKEN WITH PITY!

the As begin in under a week.
yet GP seems many moons away. (i love moons. shutup.)
been working. hard to concentrate most of the time. but at least i get work done.

the maths questions are reducing in quantity.
the economics queries are reducing as well.
the literature themes are becoming clearer.

loi says a B for maths is easily within my abilities, and the A will come when i can overcome myself and my intrinsic fear of maths. kwan hopes i'll get an A. keke.

maybe it's time? i hope so. didn't consult ms kwan today. initially booked 2 slots with her. thought i would have many questions to ask. ended up with 2. and yokes solved all of them (genius. heh). yup. she's so smart. but she's my inspiration in studies. and of course. the problem solver. yupyup. my OU XIANG! *swoooon* heh.

consulted mrs chew instead. haha. she's good. beats consultation with mr lee on anyday. at least there are discussions. yup. got praised by her. like wow la. first day she knows me and i get praised. steady la~ kekeke. then ended up talking cock with her abt wad... teaching in SJI and stuff like that. win liao. hahah.

my fren tells me to stop ogling at older women. like wad's wrong wif tt la. giggolos have a good life la. i dun mind being pampered. don't tell me u do. hurhur.

finished the nov 2002 (p1&2) and nov 2003 (p2) today, along with like 20 questions here and there. there's hashim tmr. gotta go refresh e bits and pieces tt i've left behind.

meeting john, claw, julia and maybe jaclyn. will try to get mrs chew. haha. hope she remembers who i am and can let me book slots with her.

went thru econs. micro topics. more or less within grasp. just lack the examples. those i'll probably discuss with my ou xiang and learn from her. imitation is the best form of flattery. haha.

and remember kids, drinking a glass of milk is good for ur health!
and the letter of the day is K :)



HO HO. ISN'T AH. 8am. lampa.
i sue u ah~
i dun fren SAF liao!

“If you knew how your relationship would end, would you start in the first place?”

just watched eternal sunshine of the spotless mind.
now that's a good movie.
everyone should watch it :)

about the movie.
background info

poem by Alexander Pope:
"How happy is the blameless Vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted and each wish resign'd."

The poem is about the great medieval love story of Heloise and Abelard, told in Heloise's voice, and its narrator admits that she, in truth, desires another destiny: "Far other dreams my erring soul employ, / Far other raptures, of unholy joy." The word "unholy" is used here in the sense of terrestrial and quotidian, as opposed to specifically religious. But the point of this film is that the quest for human love, the cherishing of it — in the face of all the pain it entails — is sacred and sanctified. It is a worthy desire.

to add to my last post...
got my CCA appraisal. would like to thank marthafucker praeman. (geddit geddit?) u've been a splendid CCA teacher. missing from every hockey training.

the onli time i saw u before e tourney was when u came down to scold ppl abt horrendous attendance. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR GIVING ME A 5 FOR HUMAN RELATIONS WHEN U HAVEN'T FUCKING SEEN ME. (btw 6 means "overbearing and unnecessarily officious in dealing with people") I LOVE U SO MUCH FOR THAT. i bet u probably don't even noe who u're giving ur grades to la. thx. i'm gonna miss teachers like u when i leave sch. contrast is needed in appreciating the better ones more. :D

"There's a hole in the world tonight.
There's a Cloud of fear and sorrow.
There's a hole in the world tonight.
Don't let there be a hole in the world tomorrow."

i have more of a hole in the heart. no, make it 2. NO, maybe three.
wouldn't know.

wanna ask u guys this:
is there a point in which u can like a person so much tt the notion of YOU liking tt person no longer becomes impt? whereby being the best of friends would be the best thing tt would ever happen to ur life?

cuz tt's what i'm feeling right now.

wrote 3 apologies letters to 3 different ppl.
1 of which i feel ever grateful to.
1 of which i feel like what i feel above.
1 of which i feel i should apologise to in order to face myself.




on a lighter note...
today's farewell assembly was great! enjoyed it. some highlights:

- my god i never knew ms ang could sing so well. her vocal range is so good k. but she tends to excessively dramatise some of it. wah lau. the gift she gave us also so touching. i feel like crying loh. after all the horrible things i've said abt her she still treats everyone so well. but then she still owes me 1 mark for GP. cost me 1 bloody grade for my prelims. >=)
- LOL. AND MY GOD. JOHN SMITH WAS LIKE SO CUTE DURING HIS SING. ok. shall not be gay. but yaaaaaaaaaa. my god. smart santa :))))) the standing ovation was something he deserved. heh. papa smith is my saviour. hehe. love him to bits.
- lao shi zou huo ru muo. LOL. her piano damn nice. but ya. was laughing like mad when she was like so entranced by her own music. KEKEKEKE. yup. and she still owes my class a treat. =D

ok.
ran for 2 freaking days in a row.
now my legs are shaking uncontrollably. can't even walk around properly without the help of the walls.

note to self: do not chiong so hard next time. just bcuz u've got this need to show off doesn't mean u go beyond ur ability to run.

apparently my 100 situps and 100 crunches daily routine has resulted in me having a 2 day horrendous backache over the weekend. rachel suggests i stop it. LOL.

note to self: stick to crunches. situps kill the back and cause old-man syndrome.

hai.
i'm damn sad la.


Lushington Entertainments present(s)
Eagles Live In Concert
2004 Farewell I

"For the first ever in Singapore, the highly acclaimed Eagles will appear for a one night, three hour extravaganza at Singapore Indoor Stadium.
The Eagles - Glenn Frey, Don Henley, Joe Walsh and Timothy B. Schmit - will perform songs spanning their award winning 30 year career including tracks from the best selling album of all time, Their Greatest Hits 1971-1975. In concert, fans will treated to classic Eagles’ hits such as ‘Hotel California’, ‘Desperado’, ‘Tequila Sunrise’, and ‘One of These Nights’, and to tracks from Glenn Frey, Don Henley, and Joe Walsh solo projects.

The Indoor Stadium show will be configured for 11,000 fans with an end stage at floor level and side and rear seats also available to meet the anticipated demand. The band will travel with its entire production and 75 man entourage of management and specialists including its own camera team, screens and video production to ensure all fans won’t miss a moment of the onstage action."



lol. finally remembered to post this. after sooo long.
CANNOT GO! SADDDDDDD. wah lau.
guess i'll have to sing Love Will Keep Us Alive to myself man. (cannot hit the keys to Hotel California.) LOL.
love their songs.
ARGHHHHHHHHH.

time to seek comfort in beautiful music. my refuge from this sadistic world. from my sadistic self. =D

i don't know how to phrase what i'm feeling right now. maybe these words can give u a rough idea:

Of all the sad words of tongue or pen,
The saddest are these: "It might have been."

- John Greenleaf Whittier


Ah, this beautiful world! Indeed, I know not what to think of it. Sometimes it is all gladness and sunshine, and Heaven itself lies not far off; and then it suddenly changes and is dark and sorrowful, and the clouds shut out the day. In the lives of the saddest of us there are bright days when we feel as if we could take the great world in our arms. Then come the gloomy hours, when all without and within is dismal, cold, and dark. Believe me, every heart has its secret sorrows, which the world knows not; and oftentimes we call a man cold when he is only sad

- Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

it's been a year. and slightly more than half.
i'm still where i was then.

sorry. maybe i should break the cycle. no. i will. :)