stand up speak up.


heh. got myself 2.

When I was just a chao recruit
I asked my sergeant
What would I be
Would I be PC, would I be OC

Here's what he said to me
Balls to you recruit
Whatever will be will be
Your future's not mine to see
Drop twenty now for me

When I passed out from OCS
I saw my sergeant walking to me
He said good morning, how do you do
Here's what I said to him

Balls to you sergeant
I remember how you pumped me
Now that I'm your OC
Sign extra for me

hai.
i've hit a new low point in my life.

got posted to 39SCE on monday. i don't know what to say. it's kinda stupid of me to cry myself to sleep every night for the past few nights. it also doesn't help that i got the IPPT silver for the test this morning. getting a silver obviously isn't a bad thing in itself, but it just drives home the pain even more. of course the commando songs sung at the camp isn't going to help me move on easily.

i'm still attached to pasir ris camp. but i'm already at seletar. missing the company of my friends there. to hear the advice of joseph, to see the entertainment provided by aw, sidney and others, and of course the friends i've made in my 3 months there. i miss everything there. the retardedly thick pull up bars; the horrible food; the tough PT; the powder fight; the pillow fight. everything.

i feel that i'm a commando at heart, but combat engineer by vocation. jega's words still seem to surreal to me. about how my hospitalisation cost me my chance to retake my IPPT which in turn got me struck off the commandos list. the handshakes from the guys there as well as the good luck wishes from the sergeants who told me not to forget the guys at the camp did comfort me abit, but it didn't ease the pain as the rover drove me out of the camp.

i'm feeling sad like fuck right now, so i apologise if u guys try to offer me words of comfort and i lash back at u guys. i jsut need time to sort myself out. life still goes on i guess. but i'm already feeling as if my life has left me behind instead.

hurhur
hello again.

just came back from a massive shopping spree. how massive? here's the damage report:

2x levi's jeans.
1x adidas climacool revolution
1x converse shorts
lots of other trash.



what can i say? good bye to 1.5 month's pay. KEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKE. all in one day. but then... i guess it's ONE way to relieve some of the fucking stress tt i've been undergoing all week. yup. hahaha.

applied for NUS already. gonna apply for NTU next week. still wondering if i should apply for SMU. comments in my tag would be appreciated. thx.

haha. argued with my parents for the 827247274th time.
this time over my uni course.

well done. why can't i put law as a first choice for NUS? why can't i try it out? i've a childhood dream to kill. i need to kill it in order to move on. i spent half my life dreaming of being a lawyer. in my own world I WANT to be MY OWN atticus finch. i want to fight for what i believe in. i know that i've been telling myself for a long time now that law is not and will never be my cup of tea, but i need the ppl there to tell me I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR LAW in order for me to put it down and move on. so why can't my parents understand that. it's not as if i've been going against their wishes this whole time. i'm just hoping that they can accede to this request of mine. besides... the damn application already says that i'll be considered for my other choices at no disadvantage. so why are they getting so worried about me not securing a place in NUS biz ad. it's not as if i'm short of courses to go to.



Oasis - Don't Go Away

uni uni uni... everyone's applying for uni. what abt me? i haven't even decided. haha.


NUS?
hoho. shitloads of courses i'm interested in.... law (just a childhood dream. atticus finch didn't help either. HURHUR. but i prob wont bother with it cuz every mofo applying will have S papers), business admin, arts&social science* (lots of stuff in there like political science, econs, literature, linguistics). but it's kinda hard to get in. haha. just hope i'll get business admin at least.

and yes. i'm still hate the idea of sci fac ppl applying for arts&social sciences when they have "no where else to go".

NTU?
dont realli like the idea of ending up in NTU.. onli interested in 1 course there. besides, i prob won't make it to there anyway. heard u need triple As to get into accountancy. so fuckall. haha. NTU's out.

SMU?
interesting course programmes. sadly not exactly recognised yet. but interesting nonetheless. will prob apply for accountancy/biz management.




PS:
why the fuck am i back on a friday? cuz i got discharged yesterday :D had high fever for like 7 days. then i got warded on monday. heh. hospital isn't fun. it sure as hell isn't cheap. don't like that place. don't want to stay there again.

my brains are fried.
3 days of fever at 39 degrees.

collecting the A lvl results never seemed more tiring. i couldn't even be stressed out at the release. i was just in.... pain u know. hahah.

oh yeah... and i'm supposed to book in tonight. yeay.